Breathing is nice

It's lovely to have an ephiphany, especially when it's in regard to your health.
I noticed something this last week.
I was nearly late for work three times last week.
The "tardies" are forced to park far away.
I was scurrying across the parking lot and noticed that I was walking at a good clip. Much faster than I would think a chubby girl could.
HA!
The TINY, oh so freaking tiny bit of weight that I have lost since January is frustrating. The WONDERFUL part of this stinking journey is my health is obviously changing for he better.
I was NOT out of breath walking across the parking lot.
I did not sweat walking across the parking lot.
It is nice to notice.
Okay, so "they say" I have sleep apnea. My lung function has definitely improved.
I HATE my CPAP machine. I really do. I don't think I am sleeping better. I am still sleepy when I wake up, isn't everyone? I do have to wake up at 5am though.
Co morbidities of obesity are many.
Joint pain, hypertension, diabetes, crapped out lung function, sleep apnea.
I hate that term.....or rather I hate that I have it.
I'm essentially too fat for my trachea and the tissues surrounding my trachea.
Slap in the face, but I did it to myself.
Watch out self, it;s CHANGING!
Why isn't the change good enough sometimes, the timeline?
Yes, I know, the weight didn't come on overnight. blah blah blah
Feelin' good today!